acceptance.

being accepted is very hard now a days. people of this current time are way to forced on the wrong things.  what a person looks like, what that person can give, how much money this person haves and ect. its actually very painful to know how the minds of some are beyond child like. basically one of the only things i wanted was to be liked for who i was and what i wanted to do with my life. having a person in your life who really loves you for who you are is the best thing ever given. no one wants to be alone, no one wants to go to bed alone. if you are like me and have gotten hurt before by people then you know just how are it is to really find someone who going to be there for you and not for wrong reasons. im just so tired of giving my heart away to someone then they turn around and break it as if i was worth nothing. i vowed to myself that i wont give my heart to anyone for a long time. im still very young and in college and i know i deserve way more than what i have been getting. staying strong is the hardest thing to do sometimes but ill do my best. to gain acceptance for myself not from anyone else to be my own best friend  and to be my own lover. and once i experience this and know my worth then maybe when im truly ready ill share heart with someone but not anytime soon.