Kalifornia.

Love & Forgiveness.

i have gone thru a lot of things emotionally one of the things i had a hard time doing was forgiving those who came in to hurt me. its very hard to do, simply because why would i forgive someone like that? but its not for them its for me. forgive so that i can move on and heal and ask god to help move me past whats hurting me. and this does work because i actually started to feel better and not so not focused on the issue that was at hand. any thing bad always turns better only if you allow it, and showing forgiveness to those who did you wrong is the 1st step. the only thing you can do it prey for them and "kill" them with compassion. dont allow someones elses wrong doing to hinder you, although so easy to do its not worth it.

love is a powerful word. something that our generation lacks. but it can fix just about any situation. show love and compassion today towards everyone even if they dont accept it, just know you did your part. everyone makes mistakes just as long as you are ready for forgiveness and to forgive others, everything in your path will be bright.

nightmare.

Follow The Leader...

twitter,facebook,youtube and a bunch or other Internet sites are used as popular media based pushers to "help connect with the people" as far as connecting with the people sorta speak but it has created a massive explosion for celebrity's to get involved and "connected" too. everyone and their grandmas has a twitter page and most likely is following 5-10 celebrity's. why is it that we care so much what a celeb is doing, eating, wearing, shopping at, living, dating who and so on????? their lives and how they chose to live should not be as important as our own lives. there are some people who actually worship their favorite celebrity's. why tho? its the media ...you cant run from it, you can try to turn it off but its everywhere you go. i guess its more about self control and really understanding what we see and hear on tv is all fun and games and is not meant to be followed or taken seriously. its all entertainment, granted disgusting entertainment, but still entertaining on different levels. these people want you to follow them, be just like them, copy exactly what their do that's how they make more money and stay relevant. we should be following more positive things and doing greater things for the children that are watching us. we can be leaders for each other,  so our kids can have more than tv to raise them but positivity to help guide them in a more clear direction. don't allow media to help round you as person its so easy to allow that, be your own leader.

Loving your body 101.

okay so every since i could remember ive always had a chest. it started when i got in the 4th grade and when i got to middle school i blossomed lol. so i had a lot of attention, attention i didn't like. i would actually wear hoodies and big over sized tshirts to try and hide what god had provided for me. i got the wrong attention from boys at that time and this also didn't make things easy for me. as i got older i really started to hate my chest and the fact that god gave them to me in the 1st place. i hated the attention i got and i dislike how big they were. nothing i wore couldn't give me the minimized affect that i wanted. when i turned 16 i started doing research on getting surgery done to go down a few cup sizes. i talked it over with my mom at that time and she was against it simply because she felt that i wanted to go under the knife to hide what i really was and there was no need for that. and she was right. while in high school i learned to accept what i have and to love it, i met girls who were in my same exact situation so i didn't feel alone. now in my twenties and feeling more and more acceptance for myself everyday. there is nothing wrong with what i have i guess fear of being and looking different bring on endless thoughts about yourself.  so don't ever doubt what was given to you, god made no mistakes in the creation of making you. love you, all of you to the fullest.

heres a video that i found relatable to this blog, enjoy.

know your worth.

if you truly believe that you are worth a great deal then why have people treat you differently? Ive have seen this countless times with mostly women where they down grade them selves for someone else, and they shouldn't have to do it.  i have done it. looking back at it now i can call myself foolish but i didn't understand my own worth at that time. to have someone around just to say they are around is no good if they aren't going to even show respect. i had to learn the hard way and later to cut people out my life. i don't want to be swimming in negativity all day long, but there are people who live for that i on the other hand am not one of those people. my family and close friends have been a blessing and having them around me opened my eyes even wider to how i should be treated and the kinds of people i should want around me. i take everyday a step at a time and try to enjoy my life as best as i can surrounding myself with people who don't try to break me down. i know my worth is strong and built like a rock simply because i wont allow anything or anyone to try to ruin me. there are lots of people out there who cant stand to see someone happy and will do anything to see you fail. but understanding just how precious my worth is, i know that cant happen only because i wont let it. push forward and forget those who live in negative surroundings, you are much better than that. plus  things are so much better on this  side. :)

oh she bad.

what exactly is a bad bitch???

according to urban dictionary.com  bad bitch (n) - totally mentally gifted and usually also fine as hell.

so not only do i have to be well gifted in certain things and have to be very fine but on top of it all i got to be a bitch too. what ever happen to women who are on their grind everyday paying their bills, being providers for their kids, going to college, making something of themselves. would they be considered "bad bitches"?? i think in our generation people tend to praise the wrong things, beauty is typically the number one thing and how a females mind works in always last or never even thought about. i see all the time how a young female college student would quickly change herself to fit in with society standards of acceptance. and its so easy to fall into all of that because its everywhere we go, in our media, and of course in our music. its like having a big ass and sassy attitude to match is the cool thing to have on a mans arm. honestly it shouldn't be that way..... granted we all want to look good and feel good and most importantly be treated well. but some females take everything they have and disrespect themselves just for a man and they shouldn't have to do that. start with making yourself feel good, diva if you will, dont allow someone to slap a label on you just because. know your worth and understand you are worth more  then what the standards of beauty say you are.  you can be "bad" loving yourself and doing what makes you happy.